Our purpose is to encourage you, to talk, to cry, to ask for help and to let you know you’re not alone. It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to be real with yourself. It’s okay to take off that mask. Give it some time there is a new “normal” coming. Let the wave of tears arrive and subside. No, I don’t have all the answers, no I’m not a physician nor a psychiatrist. I’m just a woman that lost my only child, a beautiful daughter that I birthed into this world. It’s painful, it’s overwhelming. Are you asking yourself, “what should I do next?” Let talk.
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If, you are reading this you may have lost a love one that is near and dear to your heart. Sometimes talking it out or writing helps release the pain. Acknowledging how you truly feel whether good or bad is a step in acceptance. It is okay to be real with yourself. This is a safe place to express yourself. You may be asking yourself a question such as, “Why do I feel the way I do?” Or “When will the pain stop?” Even “When will I feel normal again?” Well, let me tell you about my “why”.
Each one of us has a why. Why do you feel the way you do? Why, is the pain so great. My why is the love I have for my daughter Nicole, my love for her will never go away no matter what. Not even death could not remove my “why,” as long as I am alive she lives within me, she is a part of me. I stand in truth for her, and fight for her in her absence. This is my “why.” Going through the pain of missing her we have continued to stand and fight, that’s what love does to you, that’s my “why.” It all ties into our purpose in life.
Our purpose is to grow each day, and to increase in our understanding of things that might be so very hard to grasp and face. Through this, we continue to build an everlasting relationship with God. Because of the love He has for us we are all still here. My why is also love. Love has no time, nor limits when it’s real. Our love for each other, as mother and daughter, death thought it could put an end to it, this was impossible because real love… stands. No, love won’t die, if we don’t allow it, but the Power of God’s love keeps us all connected.
Remember, the only way we can see God is through the acts of kindness and deeds of each other.
The love and dreams she had for me was her “why.” She loved me so much that it still lives to this very day. I saw God in Nicole in the way she loved people, her laughter, the way she cared for herself, her brothers and myself. She knew the pursuit of happiness was her calling and her destiny. She wasn’t just happy but full of joy and excitement at the same time. Her desire to become an attorney was a labor of love and unspeakable joy. When she dreamed about it, it made her thoughts become plans. Nicole had a quiet strength and unwavering faith. This is why I stand for you Nicole because you stood for me and you stood for others.
That is what we do when our love is real… we stand! (That’s the God in us) That is why no matter what, I will stand for the truth, I will stand for you Nicole.
My daughter, Nicole Sade’ Enoch, is my dreamer, my angel, my love. With God’s help I will “Stand” that is my “why.”
Four years ago today February 19, 2014 you left this world but not our hearts.
Question: “What’s your why? Who do you stand for?”
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